It's been over a month since I wrote. A month of whirlwinds, of ups and downs, of being sick in bed, of being so overwhelmed at times I've wondered when sanity would return. But, here we are a mere 5 1/2 weeks away from being parents, and I'm beginning to believe that it really will happen after all!

I've started the meds to be able to breastfeed, and met this morning for a pre-consult with the recommended pediatrician. We have books on newborn care all over the house, and some of the gizmos and gadgets associated with babies have started to accumulate around the house.

Speaking of which, I actually found bedding this morning!!! I've been on the hunt for weeks, and today very inadvertently stumbled (almost literally) across what I think will be the perfect set at Ross. Inexpensive but just what I wanted - ladybugs, butterflies, and daisies. Yay.

I wonder sometimes if, as I was cautioned regarding wedding preparations, it's easy to get so caught up in the physical preparation that the mental and spiritual preparation get left behind somewhat. When I really stop and think about the solemnity of raising a child, I wonder how prepared I am. Last night we were able to see our good friends whose baby is 4 months. So quickly she is learning and growing and assimilating the world around her. Right from the very first, our baby must be surrounded with the best influences possible to shape her life.

So, my contemplation tonight is what can be done in our home to best promote peace and love and a sense of security for this new little life that is joining our lives....